This year has went by so fast. It seems like just the other day I was driving around listening to ska with my friend. Waking up to a ton of orders and being kinda shocked at how much money I suddenly had.
Almost a year now since my wisdom teeth about damn near killed me. I would have been utterly screwed if I hadn’t got all of those orders when I did. Nothing sucks more then just feeling like your body is against you. Recently had similar feelings. But things are finally getting back to normal.
I spent the first few months of the year super depressed and overflowing with anxiety.
I fell in love with a wonderful man. Benji is great. In all sorts of ways. I’m still surprised at just how much I love him and just give a fuck. He’s had my back when things were the best and when things have been shitty or sad or painful or just difficult, we’ve held each other up. I don’t think I could have kept things together as much if I didn’t have him to keep me going and keep me smiling. I’d like to keep him around a while ya know? I hope he feels the same.
I got the biggest order I’ve ever had and it was good and bad and forced me to learn a lot.
Our friend Jerrod passed away. He was great and I wish I could have known him better.
Ramencon was everything I love about conventions and the people I’ve met through them. Everything but great sales. I had a fantastic weekend. And when I got back I knew it was probably my last con for a while and it was time to try life without conventions. Which is weird and sometimes very tough and sucks to not see my friends as much but I know its the right choice for me right now.
Something happened and it was the worst. And that’s all I can ever say about it.
Thanksgiving was really nice. Friend Thanksgiving and going to Benji’s parents. I had a really nice time at both. Usually its a pretty underwhelming day for me. I’m thankful for all the great people around here. And I’m thankful for Benji. And his family is great and super nice and my kind of people. And his mom likes Doctor Who AND Torchwood! My mind was kinda blown. lol.
And now its December. And Hannah Rutherford did that thing again. She’s lovely and I’m so thankful for her generosity and willingness to plug someone like me for the first few minutes of her popular Christmas video series. I have some debts that need paying off. And I’ll be able to get presents for everyone. Plus the kinda ridiculous list of things for Benji (a few of which are kinda for me too lol). Maybe I spoil him a bit. I don’t care though, he’s my boo. I can pay my bills comfortably for the first time in three months. If I have to move in a few months which it sounds likely, then I should have enough to do that. I can just save some for once. Hopefully, crossing my fingers, I don’t have some pressing medical emergency like last year that saps away a whole bunch of it.
Oh and I swear to myself I will blow through these orders like lightning and get them to these people as fast as possible!
Anyways. yeah. Everything is gonna be okay.